AN END PRODUCT THAT SERVES AS A PHYSICAL DISPLAY OF ACCOMPLISHMENT

always feel like i am doing something wrong

feeling like i did something wrong when i didn’t feels like it is a wrong thing to do

sometimes i stand in my kitchen with one hand on the handle of my electric kettle and i stare at nothing for the entire time it takes for the water to boil

that action never feels wrong. it is okay to do that

it is okay to stand with one hand on an electric kettle while staring at nothing and think “this sucks”

and then it is okay to take the electric kettle and bash yourself in the head over and over again until you feel less bored

or at least until the water is done boiling

WISH WHEN PEOPLE DIED THEIR BODIES VAPORIZED OR TURNED TO SMOKE AND GRADUALLY DISSIPATED AND LEFT IN THEIR PLACE WOULD BE A LAMINATED DEATH CERTIFICATE OR SOMETHING

currently obsessed with the existence of heaven and hell and contacting the spirit of my dead ex

trying to get into astral projection but it’s hard when you have stress hives

hey what the fuck is up with most things? starting to fear hell and the afterlife and grocery stores?

wish the right people loved me. I want to feel powerful.

I WANT TO ACCIDENTALLY SET MYSELF ON FIRE

my job makes me feel like a detective sometimes because I never know what the fuck is going on and I’m always trying to figure something out

it’s a real whodunit

hope my work day turns into a murder mystery

stabbed 30 times by the UPS driver

“Oh shit, good morning, Derek. How many packages do you have for me today?”

“Just this knife today.”

stab stab stab stab stab stab

“Sweet. Thanks.”