A Collection of Paranoid Digressions
A Collection of Paranoid Digressions
vignettes of vestigiality my grandmother asked me to ask googleTM how long she is going to live. i was sure that no search engine could figure death out but i looked it up anyway. she shivered when the screen filled up with so many dead grandma memes. i told her it was meant to be funny but she did not laugh. so i opened an app and put ten minutes on the timer to tell her that googleTM did the math. she smiled and patted me on the head.
a family of pigeons shits on the window sill outside my neighbour's toilet. he stopped shooing them away when the mother gave birth to two mini-pigeons. the dad flew out for a cigarette butt and never returned. one of the children died of starvation but nobody could figure out how to remove the corpse. the mom guards it and takes a little nibble of the rotting, shit-covered flesh from time to time and feeds it to the deceased's hungry sibling.
there are little holes in the floor of my room where grieving bugs bury their dead. what's little to me must be an abyss to them but they haven't read nietzsche. i have tried reciting some of his prose to their perforated exoskeletons but they keep requesting kafka ad absurdum. maybe it's just a phase and they will grow out of it in a day or two when the vacuum cleaner tears the surrealism-fetish off their tiny skulls. i often find some hairy micro-limbs floating in the soup that my mom prepares for dinner but she insists that it is nutritious. i dig(ress/est).
Lithium Dreams i have traversed the landscape of induced insanity. when i close my eyes, i can hear the whispers of suicidal children who hang themselves from telephone wires. i wonder if their last words ever reach someone on the other end. i wonder if anyone cares to listen or if they turn on the television. i see paper men glued to the walls of concrete labyrinths. they advertise self-help books in unenthusiastic fonts. when they burn at the edges, they comfort themselves by folding into half and pretending that's all they ever were. the back alleys are where you can find fragmented remnants of this city's soul. you can see transvestite queens marking their territories with cocaine lines. nosebleeds and vague recollections of lithium dreams are the only souvenirs of the night. they mask their hedonistic secrets with cigarette smoke. i look away when they notice me. maybe I'm terrified of the contagious desire to live. do you worship the neon signs that convince you to buy happiness? i stare at the fluorescent pink with tired eyes that do not let the programming filter in. can you hear the footsteps of the photogenic youth marching towards a negotiated future? i wake up from my medicated sleep to the monotony of their manufactured ideas. can you smell the diluted paranoia wafting in through the crack in the floor? the world survives yet another day with trembling fingers and dilated pupils. i dissolve into recreational schizophrenia and